DON'T KILL ME MOM, OR KILL ME MOM

Don’t kill me mom,
Before I open my eyes
With my going away,
A part of you too dies…

Don’t kill me mom,
What wrong have I done?
That I don’t get to watch the moving tides,
The beautiful moon, the colourful sun...

Don’t kill me mom,
I’ll make you proud
Explore the deep seas, reach
The sky, stand apart from the crowd...

Don’t kill me mom,
Shouldn’t I be the one to decide?
To live or not, I can but
Plead to you from deep inside...
 

Or kill me mom,
Rather than making me work
At an age when I ought to be playing
Instead of bearing a painful jerk...

Or kill me mom,
I don’t want to walk through streets
At nights, when alone, feared
To be raped by those merciless beasts...

 

Or kill me mom,
For money, I don’t want to be beaten
By my own man, when we are two bodies,
But one soul, only in written...

Or kill me mom,
Isn’t it better to die?
Before being born, rather than
Bearing everyday a 100 deaths’ cry...

the past that haunts you

I wake up, surprised
From a dream despised,
Reality astoundingly coming in front
Baring the past, bearing the brunt…

I notice the scars, some still not healed
Trying hard to hide, but story revealed,
Half inflamed, half in shame
Dunno what went wrong, on road to fame…

Those moments of pride and happiness, all ceased
Only if some good old ‘memoirs’ could’ve been seized,
Sometimes still feel bad, but have learned to deal
The scars still hurt, but with time will heal…

People change, priorities change, but I remain the same
And yet facing new challenges daily, still not understanding the game,
The more you run away, the more it follows, each moment taunts you
Accept or avoid, goes on with you, the past that haunts you…

WHAT YOU HIDE BEHIND THAT SMILE

people think it's easy, but it isn't facile,
what, and how you hide it all behind that smile,
the sorrow that you carry deep inside,
but keeping feelings intact, and mind complied...


you'll laugh, and say "everything is fine!!",
though fighting it out all, to keep yourself align,
your mind says 'act normal', your face does abide,
but the pain which you suffer, your eyes can't hide...


neither can anyone understand, nor comprehend how you feel,
the agony of reality, a scar no-one can heal,
and still, you smile, and people think you are strong,
but deep inside moaning, thinking what happened was wrong...


you fake a smile, which no-one can see,
each moment asking yourself,"why only me?",
which each passing day, this burden would only pile,
and still comes effortlessly, your million dollar smile... 

I WON'T BE THERE

those moments, those memories, those happy times,
those wierd talks, those pranks, those facebook crimes,
those poems and those stories which i liked to share,
maybe the day you realise it, i won't be there...


I valued you, I loved you, I called you a friend,
I wish there was sometime, which you, to me could lend,
those little little actions, just to show that i love and care,
maybe the day you realise it, i won't be there...


maybe you never understood, how I felt for you,
I loved you the most, and its true,that i waited for you so long, but meeting you, such pleasure was rare,
 maybe the day you realize it, i won't be there...


why did you leave me, why did you go?
why did you end the friendship that started long ago??
YOU would never be mine, i ALWAYS had this fear,
maybe the day you realise it, i won't be there...

do you miss me, my friend?

Do you miss me, my friend?
Or is just ‘the end’,
Of the friendship that started a while ago,
Your face reminds me of those good times, just go…..

Last time I hugged you, It seemed liked the needle has its strands,
I felt as if I had my world in my hands,
You complete me, I need you, as the arrow needs its bow,
Your face reminds me of those good times, just go.......

Those late night chats, those messages, those silly prank calls,
Those making fun of each other, those shopping in the malls,
I’m nothing without you in my life, ohhhh, you know,
Your face reminds me of those good times, just go.......

Those jokes, those pokes, those evening school duties,
Those P.T.Ms, those talks and admiring those beauties,
Ahhhh I miss all this, I feel so low,
Your face reminds me of those good times, just go.......

It feels as if my heart is being pierced by a knife,
I don’t how I will carry on without you in my life,
But then I remember those words,’Life must go on,’ like any other show,
Your face reminds me of those good times, just go.......

I SMILED

i smiled, and you thought I was fine,
i said, i'm o.k., inside I was cryin',
i expected you to make out, that I was lying,
that somewhere deep inside, everyday, I was dying...


you were busy enough in your own life, I didn't want to bother you,
you would've been as disturbed as I am, if I had told you, I knew,
i smiled, and you thought I was alright,
i expected you to help me out, and hold me tight...


this world is so "shrewd", it'll point out your mistakes,
but agony of life, it gives you one chance, no retakes,
i smiled, and you thought that I was stable,
but the pain i was going through, was completely unbearable...


i don't blame you, it wasn't your fault, maybe "I" had expected too much,
maybe i should let "it" go, or let "you" go off as such,
i smiled, and you felt I was happy the way my life was,
deep inside, I was moaning over the realization of my double loss...........